My Life In Blog (FINALS! AHHHH!)

Oh the funny things that happen in my life! Hello my digital friends.

Run for your life!!! It's finals week!!! If I were to be abducted by aliens right now, I don't think I'd mind. HAHAHAHA! Yeah... I have a massive headache right now but I can't sleep. So I'll blog. Hey, I think it's a step up from facebooking. I facebook enough of my life away anyways haha ;) It's been an entertaining week though, so I've got plenty to talk about. I also have some serious things that I will be posting this week as well.

It is officially finals week. The most hectic and craziest week of my life, which comes twice a year (until I start summer semesters, then it'll come thrice!) I only have to take my Anatomy, Physiology, and Microbiology finals. As well as write a paper. It's the only paper I've had to do this semester! Yay! My anatomy lab final I took on Friday... Please pray that I did well on it! Other than that, I'm just getting ready to go home come Thursday morning when my last test is over! I can hardly keep myself from packing. Though, I really love living in my apartment and being on my own, something is just pulling me back towards Alpine... Probably Danni :) I miss my little doggie so much. I woke up crying twice the past week because I've had dreams that she died. I could hardly stand it. She has brought more joy into my life than I can express. I'm just so glad to have her, I can't imagine not having her anymore... 3 more days!

I've been going over my fall schedule already. I'm working on generals and such, and boosting my GPA and I realized today as I walked from the Science Lab building to the Student Services building and then back to the Science Lab building, that I may have my Associates degree before I get my RN! Generals are much easier to knock off while your waiting for a spot in the nursing program. I doubt I'll get in my first application (next spring, I can't believe I missed the deadline this spring!) So the spring after that is the plan. Which means I'll have 2 semesters left to get my RN starting Fall 2012. They apparently take applications yearly instead of semesterly. It would've been nice to know that before hand... In the meantime I pray that my finals go well enough that I won't have to retake Anatomy or Physiology. Though if I do have to retake one, I really really hope it's not gonna be Physiology. UGH!!! Keep your fingers crossed folks! Keep a wary eye on April 2011, I may just get a degree!!! Albeit, a degree of generals without my RN...

OH!!! MY GOODNESS!!!! My choir put our spring show on, Saturday the 17th. I cannot tell you how amazing it was!!! I spent Friday night from 6:30 to 11:15 in our dress rehearsal. Ugh. That's the one bummer about shows, night-before dress rehearsals are painful. However, I did survive and Saturday morning, I got up, got ready, left my house at 5 to 1:00 and off we went. We had the pre-show devotionals (I love the institute for that), then went on-stage at 2:30 and did a killer matinée! Afterwards, we all headed down to the institute where we got free lunch! Subway! Yum!!! Then we got to chill there from 4-6, when we went back to the nice big auditorium here on campus and started the evening pre-show devotional. The evenings performance was indescribable. The spirit that was felt there was so strong. My numbers were first and last, so between them we gathered in the holding room around the piano and sang hymns and the EFY medley. What is a better way to spend that time? My family (well, mom, dad, and Rachel) were in attendance which made it that much better. After the show was over, we walked out discussing it and a lady walking in front of us turned around, and with tears in her eyes said, "Thank you. I got the announcement in Relief Society to come to this, so I did, and I am so glad. Thank you so much for performing." I was touched! Everything that my choir teachers had said to me about the reason for our performance came out in those few words from a kind stranger. Not to mention, college performances are just another step up from anything I did in High School. Amazing!!! :D

Sunday was a wonderful day, the weather was warm, church was good, and I had an unexpected suprise! My home teacher called me to see if he could make dinner for me (he's trying to clear out his pantry before moving home). So he came over and made some killer spaghetti. He served his mission in Italy, so it was pretty legit. We didn't have onions or meat so we shredded a carrot into the sauce and used tuna fish! Crazy, right? Well an Elder on his mission couldn't eat hamburger meat, so they used tuna once. It was amazingly good! Then he invited me on a hike for Monday morning. I said sure! Then he decided we should do a sunrise hike. Yikes!!! I don't do mornings! However, I already agreed to go, so I said okay, and at 6:20 am he sent me a text saying "look out your window" and there he was, ready to pick me up and go! We hiked up waterfall canyon to the waterfall itself! It was so big due to the snow melting! Totally worth the sunrise hike. We got to watch it rise over the valley on our way down. It was beautiful!!! Talk about a home teacher going above and beyond in his calling :)

On a more serious note... I ask those of you who may read this (I know, there's not many of you) to pray for my dear sister-in-law this week. She's going into heart surgery next Monday. They will be taking out the heart, putting her on a heart and lung machine, so they can work on the back of it. She's had this surgery once before, and it was a long recovery... This one may be longer. The operation holds a lot of risks... She may need a heart transplant, the heart may not restart and she may be hooked up to a machine for as long as a few months, or there's a possibility of death. I myself am confident that things will work out just fine. She has a wonderful husband (my brother) who is a worthy priesthood holder and will give her a blessing, and she has the prayers of all her family and friends. I know I'm moving home on Thursday, but I'll be back up in Ogden Saturday for Matt's track meet (yay!) and to move the heavy duty furniture out, then on Sunday I'll go live in Plain City to take care of the cutest girls in the whole wide world, my nieces, while their mom is in recovery. I should be in Alpine again by Wednesday.

It's gonna be a crazy summer, I can feel it. My boy is moving out of state early may, my best friend up here at Weber (Rachel, you remember her, right? Love the girl!) is moving to Iraq for a year with her family, (Her dad supplies water to the troops over there, so that's where business is, and that's where family follows), and my best friend in Alpine doesn't get home till June. Aw shucks.

Well, I guess that's all for now. I'm sorry this was a freakishly long post! I feel so long-winded... Not good. :S Anywho... Pray for me for finals week!!! I'll let you know when I kick butt in that wrestling match ;) hahahaha!

Peace be with you.

Tinkerbell

Life, and Love, and Why...

Greetings!

Again I sit on my bed, curtains drawn to make me feel childish, and raindrops outside my window. School ends this week! Then next week finals go from Tuesday to Thursday and I'm done! We still have to figure out what to do with my furniture. I found that I like my hair wavy, it also saves time blow-drying it, cuz I don't anymore! It's getting longer now, long enough to curl well without a dryer. It's also going back to my natural golden color. It's a dark blonde right now. Though talking about my hair seems extremely irrelevant to anything in life...

We played water polo today in swim class. I do love that sport! Today's game was much more competitive than usual, it was quite entertaining. I'm much stronger in the water now than I was at the beginning of the semester! I'm quite happy with my improvement. I think it's always important to keep reaching to do better in life. So I don't feel too bad about being proud of myself in this instance. Haha.

Today marks 3 months until I turn 20! Just some trivia for you there... :)

I worked 12 hours at Sub Zero in one day this weekend. Double shift Saturday. Plus 6 hours Friday night. Dang, I'm gonna get a good paycheck next week!

Now I'm debating as to whether I should change my relationship status on Facebook or not ;) Hahaha! See, there's this guy. I met him my junior year of High School when we had a class together. We were mean, and I mean brutal to each other! Not to mention, I was dating someone on his team at the time... Now, 3 years later (2 of which we had little to no contact) we met up somewhere, started teasing each other again, and now we're dating. Go figure! It happened really fast, but at the same time not...? We went on quite a few dates last summer where we got to be pretty good friends, then we just stopped talking. Then in January-ish we started talking again, went out a few more times, and ba-da-bing ba-da-boom. Though I've never actually had a serious conversation with him... Basically all we ever do is tease and flirt. It's great fun! What's funnier is that early in the morning, before going to bed, we were texting and I challenged him to a wrestling match (it started out as an arm-wrestling match...) and my pride, or maybe ego, got in the way and I told him he was gonna lose. He's 5'11", 180 lbs, and maybe 2% body fat... I'm 5'10.75" and 145 lbs, maybe 16% body fat. I'm screwed, aren't I? Don't tell him I said that, I'm still trash talking it!!! ;)

So I have to say... My good friend writes stories. The ones I read are her fan-fiction stories mostly about JackSparrow (yes, from Pirates of the Caribbean). Though these stories were mainly meant to entertain and be good stories, they hold so much more sometimes. These flashes of brilliance (besides the brilliance of her writing!) come across to me and make me ponder all sorts of things in life. In one story of her's she asks the question: "Where do you find hope?" Not that I've ever had trouble finding hope, but honestly, it's a good question! Where do I find it? I don't even know the answer... I have my religion, which is helpful, but if you think about it, when you're totally hope-less, how can you reach into yourself to find it? Where do you go if not in your own self? Just a thing to ponder...

Another thing she said in a different story... "that to speak truth and lie with actions, is the worst kind of lie, in every way." Why did that hit home for me so much? Because people have told me things, no, not things, they've told me the truth about what it is they were saying. Yet they're actions weren't congruent with their words. It's caused unimaginable pain... To know what they say is true, to feel it, yet to see them do something else. I guess the word for it is hypocrisy. That's all there is to it, really. And it is the worst kind of lie. The hope that one can feel, yet the trust that gets betrayed. I think about this more than I should. It's mildly absurd, I always feel like I'm too young to have felt or feel anything so deep. This is why I don't tolerate hypocrites, they can burn entire relationships to the ground, then burn any bridges to get back. I've often gone on tangents about this sort of thing before, I won't start into another one now. The really sad thing is, it's not just me who knows this. There's more hypocrites in the world than one might imagine. Anywho! Funny how one sentence in one story can provoke so much thought. I swear sometimes this girl is writing about my life in pirate version. Hahaha!

So that wasn't the happiest note to end on. I will give my disclaimer here that I am not depressed, nor feeling hurt by things past anymore (most of the time, except for those rare, really bad days that everything goes wrong, so you think back and feel all "woe is me," but today nor any day in awhile has been like that...) The thought was provoked by a story, at 3 am. At 3 am, emotions can run a little higher than normal. Life is happy, especially if I don't think about the past! It's the past... Besides, I have too much on my mind with the present alone, and I try to plan out my future constantly. It's a lot of work for one girl.

So this is my current contemplations of Life, and Love, and Why... Tune in next time to hear about Psychology and Boredom and How ;) Not really... Life and Love and Why is a good song by the band Switchfoot. If you're interested.

Much Love! Peace!

Tink

It's April... Fools and Easter!

Happy Easter All!!! :)

I'm sitting here in my room, listening to the raindrops outside my window (being grateful it's no longer snowflakes...for the moment anyways), and I've just put up some bed curtains! I have this great 4-poster bed and my mother dear bought some curtains for it... I thought it'd be a pain to put them on, but it was actually really easy! I'm quite confident in my ability to take apart and put back together all of the furniture in my room now... Thank you IKEA! So I basically feel like a little kid again, cuz I'm in this wonderful fort (my bed with curtains), it's raining outside, I'm playing games, and I have very little homework to worry about. Another good point to 4-post beds: Laundry. I can hang my clothes over the connecting bars up top (where my curtains now hang) so they can dry! It makes life so easy to have the extra space to hang things like that when my closet doorway is full or something :)

Life otherwise is pretty uneventful... I did really really good on the multiple choice section of my physiology test, which usually I don't do as well on, but the long/short answer bumps me up, so we'll see what happens with this test... Easter Sunday was awesome! Big dinner with the whole family (minus grammy, she's sick. We should pray for her) and it's Jackie's 14th birthday on the same day! Fun!

So on top of the huge dinner, we had about 3 tons of easter candy... Then birthday cake! Oh Mamma Mia! Speaking of which... Last Thursday lunch at Institute was Fettuccine Alfredo. Normally, I don't really like Alfredo, but this stuff was GOOD! It had chicken in it too. My point is, Rachel and I dressed up Italiano this week :) I was in a red shirt with a black and white scarf, and she was in a black shirt with a red scarf! We looked pretty good if I do say so myself.

Oh my goodness, I almost forgot... April Fools day!!! I played the greatest prank on my entire institute class!!! Rachel and I got there extra early so we could switch all of the chairs around to face the back of the room... Then I wheeled the teachers desk to the back of the room and we took our seats in the back (which used to be the front) so we could watch all the reactions... Our teacher laughed and went along with it. Others were extremely confused! Those who usually sit in the back, couldn't sit in the new back cuz it was the front but they couldn't sit in the old back cuz it was the new front. So the whole non-assigned, but the usual seating chart got messed up big time! It was great. Then throughout the lesson, secretaries and other teachers kept popping their heads in to see it cuz the word spread that things got a little messed up in our classroom... Hehehehehe.... 'Twas fun!

I have to say, I'm so proud of myself! In swim class, we're learning the butterfly... I'm terrible! I look like I'm having seizures across the water between breaths. Haha!!! However, it is kind of fun, and I'm getting better! On the downside to this fabulous work out and new skill learned, I suck in a lot of chlorine water... Then when I go to choir in the evenings, my voice gets all scratchy. Oh well!

Our Spring show for choir is April 17th. There's a matinée and then an evening performance, it's gonna be really good!!! :)

And I guess that's all... Much love till my next post!

Tinkerbell